Abandon

Shake it off. Leave it behind. It won't lead you anywhere so why bother???

Good question.

Be careful

You should never get your head so far stuck up in the clouds that you can't see what's going on on the ground.

Why?

Because next thing you know, you're falling a long way down because you couldn't see that the next step you were taking was actually thin air.

Splat.

Cycle

Over-thinking => uncertainties => indecisiveness => over-thinking

and we're right back to where we started.

Trust

to show confidence and faith in something or someone.

How much trust should you invest in the people around you?
Is it foolish to just blindly trust everyone around you and expect that trust to be repaid?

The basis for a working friendship, relationship, whatever, is trust though, right? I guess the key then is finding the right balance between trusting too much and revealing too little. And hoping that the people you've placed your trust in don't come back and bite you in the ass.

Whirlpool

Just watch me fly outta this.

Quote Unquote #4

"You are the distance between the way things are and the way I want them to be."

I think, in your circumstances, you'd agree with this.

In and out

I wonder if anything has changed, but it doesn't seem as hard as I envisaged it to be anymore.

Drop in. Drop out.

Betray

It's the little things you do that betray you.

Strange

It might sound strange, but suddenly 6 more weeks of holidays doesn't seem so good anymore. I don't think I can take another 6 weeks consisting of nights like tonight which involve doing nothing at all.

Ironic though that it was only a couple of weeks back I was dying to get away from uni.

We are such fickle creatures.

Step back

Do you ever get that feeling where you feel lost and confused?

You wonder, and you start questioning yourself.
are you doing something that you want?
what is it that you really want?
are you heading in the right direction?
what is your place in this world?
what is the meaning of life?

Most of the time, these questions remain unanswered and you are what you were before - lost and confused and you just trudge along hoping that maybe, just maybe, someone will be able to answer your questions.

Maybe we place too much emphasis on trying to figure these questions out, and forget that the learning journey is important in itself too. I guess we really need to let go sometimes, loosen up, go with the flow, and just try to enjoy life and only worry about problems when they come along.

Here's a suggestion...

You're so full of shit you know, so just toughen up a little, okay?

Finished

Done. Dusted. Finally.

Free.

Sugar coating

Sugar coat these words and you're just rather innocent.

Putting it bluntly, and you're just plain stupid.

Easy

Life is not easy.

Life will never be easy - and nothing in life will ever come easily.

You have to work for it, put effort into it, put your time and energy into it and be prepared to make sacrifices. There will be hurdles that you must overcome, and barriers that you must knock down as well in order to get whatever it is that you wanted in the first place. In the end though, despite all that you've put in, things might not turn out the way that you planned them - or wanted them to; your sacrifices have not been rewarded [enough].

But no, you don't stop trying, you don't give up, you continue making the very same sacrifices and more, but the result is still the same. The same problems are still there.

So then you start thinking of giving up - you've had enough of everything happening over and over again.

When though, is enough, "enough"?
When do we tell ourselves that we can no longer take it anymore?
When is it time for us to walk away and call it quits?

I know...

...you're a decent person, so don't prove me wrong.

Stubborn

I think I'm a lot more stubborn than I would like to admit, not to mention rather..."prideful"...if that's the right word to use. I usually refuse to do anything if I feel like I'm being forced to do it or if I'm unwilling. It's another one of my bad habits, and at times, it's also extremely stupid. In hindsight, nearly every single time I do this, it always turns out to be a stupid decision. Better to swallow that pride and do the smart thing instead of feeling like an idiot afterwards.

Rain

I really like the sound of rain. The constant pitter patter of each water droplet falling is strangely soothing and comforting. I find that it's almost entrancing like, and it's so easy to just lie there and do nothing but listen to each drop of rain fall.

And isn't it funny how something as simple as this can make you feel so content and happy?

Chin up

Chin up. Chin up!

Even when the going gets tough, try to find the humour in everything despite the fact that it may seem to be beyond you. It will actually make things that much better.

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On an unrelated note, my civil lecturer is so angry! She raged at some people that were talking in the lecture I was watching tonight. She also has no sense of time because she always goes overtime - so much so that lectopia even cut off before she finished.

Bad habits

I have a few bad habits that I want to get rid of. Maybe putting it down into words will help me break these habits.

1. Sleep more - getting less than 5 hours sleep per night really isn't healthy and I end up not being able to stay awake and concentrate at uni the next day. It's something I need to seriously fix.
2. Take a break, no seriously, I need a break.
3. Keep a lid on the swearing, though usually this only happens when I get frustrated over my inability to do some uni question...
4. ...which brings us to point 4, sort of. To try and keep a better grip on all that irritation that seems to lie so close to the surface these days, making me unable to put up with any crap at all
5. Smile more, instead of...not smiling?
6. Spend less, which I think is actually going to be pretty hard.
   

and that, hopefully, will be all for now.

The silver lining

hahahahaha.

hahahaha.

hahaha.

haha.

ha. ha. ha.

How ironic.