It's only been a week of uni but I already feel so exhausted, both physically and mentally. I can see where the physical side comes in - those late nights and early mornings are making me very tired indeed but I'm not sure as to why I feel mentally fatigued as well. Maybe I'm just falling into that easily irritated mood again because I've found that happening again since uni has started.
I really wish I made more sense but everything seems to be hanging on the edge of my mind, unreachable. I don't seem to be able to translate anything substantial into words.
Or maybe I really just wanted to say that I'm feeling so exhausted right now. Sleeping more doesn't seem to be helping though.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
An impersonal apology
"Do unto others as you would have others do unto you"
It's something that I guess I haven't really paid attention to recently and I think I've been guilty of doing a particular thing that absolutely frustrates the crap outta me every single time it happens to myself personally (I felt it today but then that's just my take on it).
So here is just a small apology - I'm sorry - even though I know this hardly means anything as it's rather impersonal but some topics are better left untouched, at this moment in time anyways.
It's something that I guess I haven't really paid attention to recently and I think I've been guilty of doing a particular thing that absolutely frustrates the crap outta me every single time it happens to myself personally (I felt it today but then that's just my take on it).
So here is just a small apology - I'm sorry - even though I know this hardly means anything as it's rather impersonal but some topics are better left untouched, at this moment in time anyways.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Back at uni
Uni started again today and to be honest, overall it was pretty boring really. I came in at 1 and left around 4 (thank god the 2 hr lecture finished early) so I didn't really get to see many people. In between I was struggling to concentrate and stay awake in the lectures and I think I'm gonna dread the many 2 hour lectures and tutes that I have. That's not to say though that my timetable is bad - far from it. I have 3 packed days that go from 8-4/9-5 but I have a day off on wednesday and I finish at 11 on friday. Not bad considering that I'm overloading this semester.
And just to round it off, I want to give a BIG BIG thank you to Kim for giving me her parking permit to use. No more mixing buses and uni ever!
And just to round it off, I want to give a BIG BIG thank you to Kim for giving me her parking permit to use. No more mixing buses and uni ever!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
???
I don't think it's something I'll ever understand no matter how long I live.
Just strange.
So, so strange.
Just strange.
So, so strange.
Friday, February 19, 2010
An expensive day
Today was a pretty expensive day. I ended up spending around $340 and $100 of it could have been avoided.
For starters I bought an ipod fm transmitter for $80, a bottle of "dolce and gabbanna - the one for men" for $120 and a very satisfying lunch at hog's for $30.
Today was also annie's party at the gold club (happy 19th annie btw) and I decided to save some money and drive so I wouldn't be able to drink. That didn't work out so well because in the end I spent around $60 shouting jen, melinda, angeline and angeline's friend monica on drinks - so much for saving money from drinks.
We (me, budd and alvin) then headed off to the casino (again) after they got kicked out of the gold bar at 9 for wearing sneakers (still don't get why though but the bouncers were a bitch) and I ended up losing $40. I've decided now to never ever go to the casino again, which is a promise that I will keep. I have to admit though, the roulette dealer on my table was rather pretty - half chinese, quarter portugese and british LOL.
So the moral of the story I guess is to stay away from the casino and don't go shouting people drinks when you want to save money. Sigh. There's a lot of saving up to do in the next few weeks.
P.S. Paypal I wish you would hurry up and process my money so I can place my order on topman.
For starters I bought an ipod fm transmitter for $80, a bottle of "dolce and gabbanna - the one for men" for $120 and a very satisfying lunch at hog's for $30.
Today was also annie's party at the gold club (happy 19th annie btw) and I decided to save some money and drive so I wouldn't be able to drink. That didn't work out so well because in the end I spent around $60 shouting jen, melinda, angeline and angeline's friend monica on drinks - so much for saving money from drinks.
We (me, budd and alvin) then headed off to the casino (again) after they got kicked out of the gold bar at 9 for wearing sneakers (still don't get why though but the bouncers were a bitch) and I ended up losing $40. I've decided now to never ever go to the casino again, which is a promise that I will keep. I have to admit though, the roulette dealer on my table was rather pretty - half chinese, quarter portugese and british LOL.
So the moral of the story I guess is to stay away from the casino and don't go shouting people drinks when you want to save money. Sigh. There's a lot of saving up to do in the next few weeks.
P.S. Paypal I wish you would hurry up and process my money so I can place my order on topman.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Me or you?
I was feeling rather nostalgic tonight so I ended up trawling through and re-reading some of my msn conversations.
It's something that I've felt and noticed recently, and re-reading these conversations made me realise just how different things seem to be now. I can say for certain that I am not very fond of this "new you" and would rather much have the "old you" back. I feel as though we have drifted apart and I find it hard to sustain any sort of conversation with you now - it's like there is a barrier that has risen up between us, and it doesn't help when the replies I receive hardly encourage a continuation of the conversation.
A part of me does wonder though whether this is all just because me being paranoid - possibly because my/our circumstances are different now - or whether things actually have changed between us.
Is it me or you?
It's something that I've felt and noticed recently, and re-reading these conversations made me realise just how different things seem to be now. I can say for certain that I am not very fond of this "new you" and would rather much have the "old you" back. I feel as though we have drifted apart and I find it hard to sustain any sort of conversation with you now - it's like there is a barrier that has risen up between us, and it doesn't help when the replies I receive hardly encourage a continuation of the conversation.
A part of me does wonder though whether this is all just because me being paranoid - possibly because my/our circumstances are different now - or whether things actually have changed between us.
Is it me or you?
Burswood
I just got back from my first trip to the casino and as one of my friends put it, I am no longer a casino virgin.
So how did I go? I played only on the big and small table and ended up winning $7.50 and adding the $5 I got from joining club burswood, I'm up $12.50! Not bad for a first time I guess though I probably won't be going back anytime soon - there are much better ways to spend your money than at the cas.
So how did I go? I played only on the big and small table and ended up winning $7.50 and adding the $5 I got from joining club burswood, I'm up $12.50! Not bad for a first time I guess though I probably won't be going back anytime soon - there are much better ways to spend your money than at the cas.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Owwww
My back has been killing me these last few weeks. I think it might be from working so many hours at woolies.
Or maybe I'm just getting old.
Or maybe I'm just getting old.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
That feeling
Have you ever had that feeling when you feel empty and hollow inside? It's like there is a big gaping hole inside you and nothing that you do seems to be able to patch that hole up.
You feel unfulfilled with and dissatisfied at life; there doesn't seem to be any purpose in your life. Each day comes and goes - you might be doing different things, but at the end of the day it feels like nothing has really changed and everything is the same.
Ironically though, you seem to enjoy those countless hours spent doing nothing meaningful, and those minutes that you are able to spend by yourself. Deep down though, you know that you want to spend your time meaningfully with company. Yet you are constantly in a state of lethargy, and to summon the energy and enthusiasm required to do this seems to be beyond you. In the end, you do nothing at all, and nothing changes.
You feel unfulfilled with and dissatisfied at life; there doesn't seem to be any purpose in your life. Each day comes and goes - you might be doing different things, but at the end of the day it feels like nothing has really changed and everything is the same.
Ironically though, you seem to enjoy those countless hours spent doing nothing meaningful, and those minutes that you are able to spend by yourself. Deep down though, you know that you want to spend your time meaningfully with company. Yet you are constantly in a state of lethargy, and to summon the energy and enthusiasm required to do this seems to be beyond you. In the end, you do nothing at all, and nothing changes.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
That mood
I've been in this mood for the past week or two now. That mood when you constantly feel agitated, annoyed and every little thing seems to have the ability to just tip you off the edge. It's like my well of patience has somehow deserted me, and it's...well, rare really.
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On yet another note, nothing much seems to be different does it? It's all really the same and I shouldn't feel surprised at all.
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On yet another note, nothing much seems to be different does it? It's all really the same and I shouldn't feel surprised at all.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
It's true
"i'm waiting"
This post rings so much with me personally that I felt obliged to blog about it.
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On another unrelated note, a little cold perhaps?
This post rings so much with me personally that I felt obliged to blog about it.
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On another unrelated note, a little cold perhaps?
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