Me or you?

I was feeling rather nostalgic tonight so I ended up trawling through and re-reading some of my msn conversations.

It's something that I've felt and noticed recently, and re-reading these conversations made me realise just how different things seem to be now. I can say for certain that I am not very fond of this "new you" and would rather much have the "old you" back. I feel as though we have drifted apart and I find it hard to sustain any sort of conversation with you now - it's like there is a barrier that has risen up between us, and it doesn't help when the replies I receive hardly encourage a continuation of the conversation.

A part of me does wonder though whether this is all just because me being paranoid - possibly because my/our circumstances are different now - or whether things actually have changed between us.

Is it me or you?

Burswood

I just got back from my first trip to the casino and as one of my friends put it, I am no longer a casino virgin.

So how did I go? I played only on the big and small table and ended up winning $7.50 and adding the $5 I got from joining club burswood, I'm up $12.50! Not bad for a first time I guess though I probably won't be going back anytime soon - there are much better ways to spend your money than at the cas.

Owwww

My back has been killing me these last few weeks. I think it might be from working so many hours at woolies.

Or maybe I'm just getting old.

That feeling

Have you ever had that feeling when you feel empty and hollow inside? It's like there is a big gaping hole inside you and nothing that you do seems to be able to patch that hole up.

You feel unfulfilled with and dissatisfied at life; there doesn't seem to be any purpose in your life. Each day comes and goes - you might be doing different things, but at the end of the day it feels like nothing has really changed and everything is the same.

Ironically though, you seem to enjoy those countless hours spent doing nothing meaningful, and those minutes that you are able to spend by yourself. Deep down though, you know that you want to spend your time meaningfully with company. Yet you are constantly in a state of lethargy, and to summon the energy and enthusiasm required to do this seems to be beyond you. In the end, you do nothing at all, and nothing changes.

Questions

Some questions have no answers.

So stop trying to answer them.

That mood

I've been in this mood for the past week or two now. That mood when you constantly feel agitated, annoyed and every little thing seems to have the ability to just tip you off the edge. It's like my well of patience has somehow deserted me, and it's...well, rare really.

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On yet another note, nothing much seems to be different does it? It's all really the same and I shouldn't feel surprised at all.

It's true

"i'm waiting"

This post rings so much with me personally that I felt obliged to blog about it.

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On another unrelated note, a little cold perhaps?